Wednesday, March 21


I've come to realize that I, if left to my own devices, can really complicate situations.
Because of my natural tendencies, I can be a destructive force especially in my marriage.  Marriage has been so good for me in that regard.  Because slowly, but surely, I am learning to turn to the Lord for wisdom and solutions.  I've actually done this since I was a teenager, but I guess that in recent months, maybe even years, I've wanted to spread my wings and just handle things on my own a little more.  That is a good thing, but it is always important still to include an all-knowing, all-loving Father in Heaven in our lives.  I still have some growing up to do in many areas.  And He alone will help me to achieve that.

We are at a phase in our family, where both of our loads are heavy.  And at the moment because of my  kids' ages, stages, and because of a great support system around me, I feel that my husband's load is heavier than mine.  There have been many times when it has been reversed.  It is so easy to be selfish when things are going well.  And I have been blind to just how much pressure he is under now.  I needed to really talk through it with him in order to gain the right perspective.  I'm thankful he was willing to do that with me last night.  He is such a great man with really high expectations.

I love my husband.

Change is inevitable.  An eternal perspective is vital.  And we must learn to enjoy things as they are while being a support to those who are in need if we are in a position to do so.  Many times in life, we are the ones in need.  I have been there so much, that I almost don't know what to do with myself when things are going so well.  I'm thankful to be in a position to help and serve though.  And I pray that I will have the eyes and mind to see what is around me.

Tuesday, March 20

My sweet Sarah turned two yesterday.  She's been such a joy in our family.  Happy, go-with-the-flow, and a mother to all.  We're thankful to have her in our family!!

Friday, March 16

We found out yesterday that we're having a boy.  I finished this painting/drawing a week ago.  Yay for our little Joshua!

Tuesday, March 13

The Bachelor, After the Final Rose

  I just got done watching After the Final Rose. I cannot believe the way people are treating Courtney.  Just because a person has emotional issues to work through does not give justification to condemn an individual.
Who am I to judge another, when I walk imperfectly?  In the quiet heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see.
It is frustrating to see the level of hostility people can show.  Seriously, they would stone her to death if they had the chance.

  What would Jesus do?  He understands her better than anyone else, and I'm pretty sure he treasures her.  He understands her and what she needs in order to heal and change.  Give her a chance people!

  I do believe the reason I am so understanding of her is because I have had to work through serious emotional issues within my relationship to my love.  And because of his redeeming qualities (which are comparable to some of Courtney's), he has stood by me and loved me through it.  I recognized many good things about Courtney-she is loyal in her relationships.  She gives her all to the ones who really matter, and doesn't care much about what people think-but not to a fault.  She is capable of recognizing when she's done wrong.  And yes, she has weaknesses.  But they are nothing she can't overcome in time.

  If I were to give a message to Courtney and Ben right now, I would say, DON'T listen to a word people say that is negative to do with your relationship.  There was a reason you were attracted to each other, and you have to believe in that.  From my perspective, you create a beautiful balance for each other.  And you will help each other to grow.  Believe, and be willing to do what it takes to work through those growing pains, and you will be just fine.

I believe in love.  I believe in marriage and happy families.

I also believe that our society has some seriously screwed up ideas about what relationships can and should be.  Fantasy land, vs. reality.  I hope each of us are able to recognize what is fantasy and what is real for the sake of our relationships, esp. in marriage.

Stellaluna and Cardboard Butterflies

  My thoughts have been turned to a famous LDS blogger.  Josh Weed is his name. He had come out with a post about four years ago decla...