This year marks a new life for my husband and I.
Last year, and the year before, our entire world came crumbling down for good reason.
With the birth of our seventh child, came a new hope for a better life.

Tonight, my husband and I attended the Temple for the second time together since moving to Utah.  I had been asking and begging for way too long to have him come with.  We finally did it, and are determined to get back as often as possible.  No more excuses.  We need as much help as we can get in raising our children together.  We must do our part in order to claim such blessings.

Peter Lawrence was born at the end of last October.  He is pure joy to every person in our family.  We now have NINE people in our home.  And my little ones are quickly turning into grown young men and women.

I have been off depression medication through the end of my last pregnancy, up until now and still wonder how such a miracle is happening!  I am happy.  I enjoy life again, similar to how I was as …

Life is Busy

My days are filled with taking care of children, trying to get enough rest, keeping up on my homework and trying to motivate myself to get things done around the house and yard.

It seems boring.  And it can be.
It can also be extremely overwhelming.
But I am blessed with my life.

I think I need to be able to get out and socialize sometimes.  I have not been able to get much of any since moving to Utah unless I travel an hour to see family or friends. But I'm tired of traveling.  I look forward to moving to our settling place so that I can start early and try to make some good friend connections...I won't have to leave within a couple years, my kids will be able to be pretty open knowing that it will be the only school(s) they will have to attend.
My husband will be able to chose a job he likes and has knowledge in instead of having to be retrained multiple times, and just getting a handle on it before we are transferred to another assignment.  Maybe he will have energy to give to o…
Marriage, not for the faint of heart
In time, you will see
That it is a commitment of the soul
meant to last eternity...
At times it may seem that all the love in the world
Could not make up for the difficulty at hand..
But through the change of life one learns
There are several footprints in the sand
Even through the worst of it,
If you quiet your mind, you'll find
That wisdom comes and sight, restored
In the areas you had once been blind
So stick it out, throw out your doubt
Think on the love you still share, and you will grow ever aware...

When all's said and done, from heaven, we will know that earth's experience was skewed.

Utah Life

My husband is coming up on his eighteen year mark active duty.
It's been a long, hard journey. but also full of joy and laughter.
Everyone in our family is ready to settle, and hopefully, next summer, it will become a reality.
We have a new addition to our family.  My little brother is now the eldest out of our children we are raising.  He has been a great addition and we LOVE seeing him grow in ways he couldn't before because of the environment he was in.
Please pray for healing for my parents.  I hope and pray that the right person/people will be set in their path so that they can have the opportunity to live a life full of joy and peace for the remainder of their days here.  Because of weakness and sin, they continue to dig pits for themselves and have no ability to take full responsibility, a willingness to do what they need to to change. I believe that because of their high anxiety and stress levels, they have justified themselves in abusing and using their children (and …
Angela was recently baptised.  She is my spunky, fun-loving, full-of-attitude and zest for life girl.  She is smart, and good at almost anything she tries.  This is her testimony and pictures from the end of April, 2016

My name is Angela. I am eight years old. I know that God loves me and that He created this earth.  I believe the Church is true, and I hope everyone understands that Jesus did exist! I love Him very much and He is our Savior.

Falling Into Place

My marriage has literally come crumbling to the ground in the past two years.  It almost ended a year ago, and again six months ago.

Things needed to change permanently.  I had grown all I could possibly grow in the paradigm we had created, and now I was ready to continue growing in a more healthy direction; and most importantly, WITH my husband, if he was ready and willing to do whatever it took to make it work.  I was done feeling alone in my marriage.

So, everything fell apart.  And yet, looking back, I see that everything was falling into place exactly as it was meant to happen.
The amount of healing and rebuilding that is going on in both of us is nothing short of miraculous.

I have loved my man more than I could imagine ever loving anyone.
I am thankful he chose us.  I will continue to choose him carefully, each day, each hour, and recommit myself to being the best me for us.  I will not take for granted all that we've been through, all that I had to go through in order to…


We have recently relocated to Utah where I grew up.  It has been fascinating to me, having lived in five separate states since marrying my husband, the diversity in people, bugs, animals and weather.  There is truly a distinct culture in each state, and even from city to city.

It usually takes around six months for me to feel that life is going to be alright after a move.  Between the kids melting down, fighting and missing our old home and friends, adjusting to a new climate, elevation and me trying to establish some sort of support system in a new place, those first months are rough on the entire family.

We are five months in, and each of my children have found a friend or two, and have begun to feel comfortable with the neighborhood.  We are surrounded by some great families, and a beautiful place to grow healthy, happy children.  I am thankful for the many answers to prayers I have seen as we have tried to begin settling again.

The most exciting news for me is that I've starte…